You shouldn't have

I won't let you understand

I won't let you see through me

I won't let you see my struggles

And who I want to be.

I know you'll be frightened and get pushed away

And that I'll avoid, 'cause I want you to stay.

My words will stay unspoken, my fears will be hidden

Or else you will get hurt, and that is forbidden.

The shadows will cover light,

I am too tired to fight

Well, I'm actually afraid

I have found out I failed.

You shouldn't be like me

Shouldn't do what I do

This shit cannot kill me

But I know it can kill you.

Maybe it's the opposite

Maybe I'm the one who'll die

Because my blood's not infinite

And someday I will be dry.

But maybe I'm already gone

I couldn't believe my eyes

I couldn't believe what you had done

And that made me whisper lies.

I would've done anything

To know you'll be okay

Now I'm to blame for everything

I hope you'll see someday.

I hope you'll see that it has hurt me

And that I wanted to die

But you won't see who I'll soon be

Just another soul who'll fly.